could not imagine being any more unhappy right now.
Edit: A weight has just been lifted off my chest. I did what I felt like I had to do to heal myself and I have received what I needed most. To anyone reading this, you must understand that communication is the most important thing in the world, in almost any situation. To understand that is incredibly valuable, and will save you much heartache in the future. You can't just talk to someone how ever your instinct tells you. It is essential that you know how to communicate properly with who you are speaking to. This knowledge is priceless.